❤ Liebster Blog Award ❤

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Woooow! This is actually really exciting! This is my very first award, my first blog award! How cool is that!

Well, anyway, I’ve been nominated by missmaxwell91, who wrote: “On My Way:  Lovely style of writing, very intelligent.” What can I say now, but… THANK YOU SO MUCH! This is really nice of you to say :)!

To be honest with you, I had never heard about this award before… but I think it’s a very nice thing to do as an award is always a kind of acknowledgement. So it means a lot, at least as far as I’m concerned, to know some people really like my blog and the posts I write :). Thank you SO MUCH for that, guys! ★

THE RULES

The recipient must post 11 fun facts about themselves

The recipient must also answer 11 questions created by the award giver

The recipient must give the award to 11 new bloggers with less than 200 followers and post 11 questions for them to answer

These 11 bloggers must be told they have been given the award

They will in turn pass the award on to 11 new bloggers of their choice (no tagging back the award giver)

• 11 facts about me… 

1. I used to have my 15 minutes of craziness.

2. I am a TV series and musical addict!

3. I could read Les Misérables over & over again!

4. I apparently hold my cutlery the wrong way round.

5. I used to pronounce ‘pyjama’ like ‘pigeon’!

6. Still can’t pronounce ‘law’ properly :s (and lots of other words… but I’m not worried, it will come ;)!)

7. I can’t stand wearing two different socks! I like when everything’s perfectly coordinated! :p

8. Cookery Books and Magazines are my guilty pleasure!

9. I Love Teddy Bears – I’ve got a beautiful collection (sorry, I can’t tell you how many! Maybe… Probably TOO MANY :p!)

10. I may be a bit clumsy sometimes…

11. … that’s why my nickname is “Catastrophe Marie”! (Don’t Laugh!)

• My answers to missmaxwell91‘s questions…

1. Who do you sometimes compare yourself to?

I often compare myself to a “revolution”, as I am passionate, determined & always have that kind of “rage” inside of me. I’m the kind of person who’s always pushing through the hardships and who wants to do what’s best for others. 😉

2. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?

Being away from my family, I think.

3. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are (why)?

Between 20 & 22, which is not a big difference with my actual age… but that’s the age people usually give me regarding how I look but also the maturity I’ve got thanks to all the not-really-good things life has brought my family lately.

4. What does ‘The American Dream’ mean to you?

Dreaming BIG!

5.What is your happiest childhood memory?  What makes it so special?

It was the day my dad brought our little black cat at home (well, he was little at the time, but he is really MASSIVE today :s!)

6. What are three moral rules you will never break?

1) Respecting everybody (whoever they are) / 2) Never eating horse meat! / 3) Always doing the best to forgive people

7. What is your most prized possession?

My horse!

8. What has been the most terrifying moment of your life thus far?

When somebody tried to kidnap me at a fun fair when I was little.

9. What is the nicest thing someone has ever done for you?

When my best friend (at time, because apparently, he doesn’t accept this term anymore!!!) stood up for me when I was being bullied in middle school.

10. What’s the most important lesson you’ve learned in the last year?

Always smile to people who can’t & be nice to everyone even if some people are rude (it’s not a reason for us to be rude as well!)

11.What one ‘need’ and one ‘want’ will you strive to achieve in the next twelve months?

‘One need’ : I need to know that my family is gonna be alright when I’m gone, when I leave France for good to come & live in England.

‘One want’ : I want to “look after” my friendships, whether they are old ones (Thibault, Guillaume, Amélie, Maëlle, Nadia, Pauline, Abichoupette) or burgeoning ones (Melody, Fay, Jamie)

• 11 Blogs I nominated for the Liebster Blog Award… I love so many blogs, but I had to pick only 11 (it was really hard, believe me!!!!) … so I’m sorry for those I didn’t nominate :s

1.  Flavie Peticoeur – Without any doubt… My FAVORITE!
2. Conker & Indigo Makes – Such a delicious reading!
3. FINGER, FORK & KNIFE – A SO YUMMY Blog!!!
4. In the Clouds – Always very lovely posts!
5. Fille Sans Shampoing – The Girliest!
6. Les Recettes du Panier – Very Fresh!
7. THE FASHION SECRET – A must-read Blog! For all the Fashion addicts x
8. My Sweet Street – Always nicely illustrated!
9. Dépêches Mode – DEFINITELY Fashionable!
10. Madame Paillettes – Need any advice for your nails? Well… THIS Blog is FOR YOU 😉
11. Loetitia Cuisine – If you want to find nice vegetarian recipes…

• My Questions for my 11 dearies…

1. If you were an animal, what would you be? and why?
2. If you were a painting, which one would you be? and why?
3. If you were a place, what would you be? and why?
4. If you were a concept, what would you be? and why?
5. If you were a book, which one would you be? and why?
6. If you were someone else, who would you be? and why?
7. If you were a man/a woman (pick the opposite gender), who would you be? and why?
8. If you were a film, which one would you be? and why?
9. If you were a meal, what would you be? and why?
10. If you were a song, which one would you be? and why?
11. If you were a blog (not yours), which one would you be? and why?

And what would be one of my post without you-know-what?

So… Keep holding on to what you love & enjoy the ride of life 😉

xoxo

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PS: Thanks again to missmaxwell91‘ for the nomination 😉 Cheerios!!!

To my Best Friend…

This post is a bit special because it’s dedicated to my best friend… He probably doesn’t read any of these articles, but it’s always worth saying what’s on your mind so…

The only thing I’ve got to say really is “I miss you… like terribly and I just wanted to tell you that every day without you hurts a lot.”

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I don’t know how you’re supposed to live knowing that this unique person who is your best friend simply let you down after years and years of friendship. I really don’t know. I thought that my best friend would always be there… But apparently he’s gone for good and…even if I have other friends, nobody can replace him!

When you have a best friend you deeply know that wherever you go,  you’re not going there alone. And now I just feel like I am… alone, without anybody by my side or watching my back anymore.

It’s really crazy because he was and still is the person who give me strength, but he took everything back so easily in just a few seconds…

But as he said, life goes on and… I guess I just have to keep holding on to what and who I love (but that includes him, so whether I want it or not he’ll always be a part of my life ?!) & enjoy the ride of life 😉

Keep holding on as well, guys and I write to you very soon 😉

xoxo

Something you were never meant to read…

I’m sure you know what it feels like to read a text that you could have written, because it affects you so much that it is just as if you were living the same situation as the author.

That’s what happened to me today when I read that “letter” a couple of hours ago.

Thank you, I hate you, I’m sorry

Thank you

because without your support, I wouldn’t be here

I wouldn’t have stayed when things got hard

I wouldn’t have believed that I could find a life.

Thank you for the way you know me, 

for being my best friend for what feels like forever,

and for raising the bar so high that I don’t know where to begin.

Thank you for knowing to let go before things got ugly.

On some level, you must’ve known that forcing me to fly 

would force you to fly too, to do the things you know you need.

And maybe you even share the belief that our paths 

will join us together again, and for always.

I hate you

for not wanting it badly enough, 

for not believing we could do this together, 

for not following through.

I hate that you didn’t have the balls to take a chance,

to explore this place that’s filled with your dreams.

I hate that you don’t even seem to be doing 

the things that made you stay.

I hate that the way you tell me how you feel almost always hurts, 

and that most of the time you just don’t tell me at all.

I hate that you are the only guy I can imagine loving,

and you make letting go seem so easy, 

like it doesn’t hurt at all,

like you don’t ever cry.

I’m sorry

I left the way I did, 

because of what it said to you:

that I would always expect you to follow.

I’m sorry I didn’t see it like that.

I thought paving the way would create

an adventure that would change our lives.

I’m sorry I didn’t wait until you were ready,

that I didn’t think I could, so the decision doesn’t feel like yours.

I’m sorry that it seemed like your opinion wasn’t important,

when nothing could be further from the truth.

I’m sorry that I doubted our future, and made you doubt it too.

I didn’t know well enough myself to tell you

all the things that needed to change, and why.

We both thought we’d have more time, and then I left.

I’ll always be sorry for that.

Extract from 150 LETTERS YOU WERE NEVER MEANT TO SEE edited by Bill Shapiro

People who really know me will understand…

Meanwhile, Keep holding on to what you love guys & enjoy the ride of life 😉

xoxo

“Forever”… That’s what you’d said.

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I think I got my answer… “FOREVER” doesn’t mean anything anymore!

I’ve never thought that my best friend (I don’t even know if I still have the right to call him like this) would make me cry someday. But he did. I’m not angry at him. Life sucks and that’s it! Everyone goes his own way and meets new people and that’s great, there’s nothing greater actually… but on the other hand, you may lose a lot. As far as I’m concerned, there was and there still is no one more important to me than my best friend, but everything’s gone in a few minutes…

One day you think that you’ll always have this one person who will always be there for you, no matter what, who is not like your other friends, and another day everything simply crumbles… You don’t feel anything anymore and above all you don’t want to feel anything (at least I don’t) because nothing makes sense anymore! I started wondering if I had made the right choices or not. When I think about it, I would say that leaving home brought me a lot and now I’m just doing what I’ve always dreamt of doing, but leaving home also made me lose my best friend… So, was it worth leaving then? I don’t know, I really don’t… and regarding the way I’m feeling right now, crumbled, devastated, broken down, lonely… I truly doubt about it.

And please, don’t try to tell me that everything’s going to be alright, that time will make its magic because it won’t. I haven’t seen him for more than 3 years now, so I have already been feeling low, but I believed what one says “Side by side or miles apart, best friends are together if only by heart”. Apparently I was wrong, I shouldn’t have believed that. And now it simply… hurts.

But keep holding on to what you love & enjoy the ride of life anyway, guys.

xoxo

PS : I miss you T.