On my way… by Marie

Keep holding on to what you love & enjoy the ride of life


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Rest In Peace my baby cat <3

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“It is a curious thing, the death of a loved one. We all know that our time in this world is limited, and that eventually all of us will end up underneath some sheet, never to wake up. And yet it is always a surprise when it happens to someone we know. It is like walking up the stairs to your bedroom in the dark, and thinking there is one more stair than there is. Your foot falls down, through the air, and there is a sickly moment of dark surprise as you try and readjust the way you thought of things.”
― Lemony SnicketHorseradish: Bitter Truths You Can’t Avoid

BLACK! That’s exactly how I’m seeing things right now and how I’ve been seeing them since yesterday morning my cat was euthanised :(!!!

It’s a bit hard to find words to describe how bad I’m feeling… So I found a quote of Lemony Snicket and I also inserted a few lyrics of Les Mis’ song, Empty Chairs at Empty Tables, but… apart from saying that I’m awfully sad and depressed and barely lost, I can’t really say more…

So I’m not going to lose myself in this post and write a lot… first because I don’t think I can & secondly because I wanna honour my baby cat, the adorable companion he’s been all his short life…

My baby cat passed away when he was still quite young and the only thing I can say about it is that it’s horribly UNFAIR!!! Monday evening was the last time I could cuddle him, kiss him and hear his sweet purring… I almost feel like I haven’t really enjoyed this precious moment the way I was supposed to, the way you’re supposed to enjoy a LAST moment with someone dear!

At that instant, I couldn’t believe or slightly didn’t wanna believe it was the last time I would cuddle you, hear your calming purring, and see you, you, my lovely little cat… I didn’t want your gentle and kind purring to stop! 😦 I love you a lot and I’m going to miss you like hell!!!!

But hopefully Love never dies a natural death! So here’s to YOU!!!!

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* Phantom faces at the window. Phantom shadows on the floor. *

WILL MISS U SO MUCH

U

To you, mon petit MANOU ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ … 

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Missing…

Something, someone… or actually everything and everyone! I truly miss EVERY BIT of England!

“Miss someone until they come back, or until you come back, until their absence in your life becomes something to be avoided at all costs. Miss them until you don’t have to anymore, until you’re reunited in your favorite booth in your favorite restaurant ordering your favorite meal, miss them until it feels like you never left. Or miss them until you can’t anymore, until the things you miss are identified and cataloged as things and not a person, until you figure out that easy company and long talks and unblinking, all-knowing eye contact will find you again the way they found you the first time. Miss someone until you don’t.” 
― Stephanie Georgopulus

I think the thing I’m gonna miss the most about England is, of course, the English language! I love speaking English!!! And being back in France & having to speak French all the time almost kills me! I mean, even the people who are perfectly able to speak English won’t do it (but I admit that what I’m asking may be a bit too much :s!!!).

Then I’m gonna miss the country and especially my very fancied comings & goings to my so cherished London <3!!!! You know my love for England & you may even better know my love for London, so I don’t think I need to develop that point ^^!!!

 

I am also going to miss… (yes I’m gonna say it!) the English food! Don’t be surprised but I’ve been very well surprised on the matter of the English cuisine! There are lots of very yummy things and to be honest, I couldn’t live somehow else than the English way now (and this is not only for what might concern the breakfast-lunch-&-dinner aspect ;)!!!).

My second to last thingies I’m horribly going to miss are all the adorable nicknames people are used to giving! From darling to angel, sweet pea, sweetie, and the list can be long… Even if you don’t know the person more than that, this is just something you do and it’s extremely all-peaceful! When I came back in France two days ago, the first thought that came to my mind was “OMG but people are SO rude!!!!!!” ! And I truly think I won’t be able to get used to this French rudeness all over again, not this time, not after 6 months in England!

And at last & above everything else, I’m awfully missing all the amazing people I’ve met over there! I miss them like hell! These people allowed me to start from scratch, to have a massive clear out in my life and kinda start a new one! They’ve done things no one has never done for me before and they’re simply all so very wonderful!!! I love them a lot and I am so happy I’m keeping in touch with ALL of them! I can’t wait to see them again… but I promise them I will see them soon, I will see them again VERY soon!!! For this very special reason, I wanna end this post with a positive-thinking quote…

“I like to see people reunited, maybe that’s a silly thing, but what can I say, I like to see people run to each other, I like the kissing and the crying, I like the impatience, the stories that the mouth can’t tell fast enough, the ears that aren’t big enough, the eyes that can’t take in all of the change, I like the hugging, the bringing together, the end of missing someone.” 
― Jonathan Safran FoerExtremely Loud and Incredibly Close

I hope you liked this post, my lovely ones (I’m sorry I didn’t write before but I’ve been pretty busy unpacking all my stuff :s!) and as usual, I’m telling you…

Keep holding on to what and who you love & enjoy the ride of life 😉

Much love ❤

xoxo


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Everything happens for a reason so… Let me love you ❤

“Sometimes you want to say, “I love you, but…”
Yet the “but” takes away the ‘I love you’. In love their are no ‘buts’ or ‘if’s’ or ‘when’. It’s just there, and always. No beginning, no end. It’s the condition-less state of the heart. Not a feeling that comes and goes at the whim of the emotions. It is there in our heart, a part of our heart…eventually grafting itself into each limb and cell of our bodies. Love changes our brain, the way we move and talk. Love lives in our spirit and graces us with its presence each day, until death.

To say “I love you, but….” is to say, “I did not love you at all”.

I say this to you now: I love you, with no beginning, no end. (…) Without fear. Without expectations. Wanting nothing in return, except that you allow me to keep you here in my heart, that I may always know your strength, your eyes, and your spirit that gave me freedom and let me fly.” 


― Coco J. Ginger

I’m not going to mention or tag anyone in this article, because I know that people I’m writing this post for will recognise themselves, and because I also know that everyone who’s been following my blog for the past few months will know, without any difficulty, who I’m talking about… (and if you don’t, well the only thing left to do is read my other posts ^^).

Everything happens for a reason… I totally, completely, absolutely agree with that! Especially now. My 6-month placement is progressively coming to an end, and I would lie if I said it didn’t make me sad… I feel a bit down for lots of reasons, but there’s one thing that particularly makes me blue, and this is nothing but leaving all the wonderful people I’ve met over here, in England (and they’re not all British :p!)! Thus, this post is mostly for all of them, but also for all the other lovely people I know and who I want to say… Let me love you!

I truly believe that each person has a heart full of love (no, it’s not a reference to the Les Mis’ song! I’m seeing you coming :p!!! I mean it word for word!), a soul that is only waiting  for giving all that love. We are made of love and the only thing we really want, or slightly we really need is offering our love to all the amazing people, who came into our lives one way or another… Don’t you think?!

So today, I would like to say to all the great people I have met in my life so far that I’ll be standing here, waiting for them to be ready to receive all the love I want to give them… I want to tell them: “Just believe in me, I’ll be waiting for you, here inside my heart… I’m the one who wants to love you more…” (I’m sure those last lines quite ring a bell to you, my lovely ones, do they not?!) 🙂

So… just so they know, just so you know… I won’t give up on any of these people, I won’t give up on any of you… because as I previously said it, they came into my life one day and I don’t believe that it was random! I am made of love, like everyone… I truly believe that! And the only thing that would made my life complete is to give my love.

So I’m gonna repeat what the quote I put at the beginning of this article says… ‘I say this to you now: I love you, with no beginning, no end. (…) Without fear. Without expectations. Wanting nothing in return, except that you allow me to keep you here in my heart, that I may always know your strength, your eyes, and your spirit that gave me freedom and let me fly.’ 

With this, my lovely ones, I’m just gonna leave you with that little extract of a lovely poem that I hope will accompany you all your day 🙂

Be a best friend, tell the truth
Overuse “I love you,”
Go to work, do your best
Don’t outsmart your common sense
Never let your praying knees get lazy
And love like crazy” 

― Tim James & Doug Johnson, performed by Lee Brice

Keep holding on to what you love & enjoy the ride of life 😉

Much LOVE to all of you, my dear readers ❤

xoxo


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Feeling blessed to know THEM…

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“Live your truth. Express your love. Share your enthusiasm. Take action towards your dreams. Walk your talk. Dance and sing to your music. Embrace your blessings. Make today worth remembering.”

― Steve MaraboliUnapologetically You: Reflections on Life and the Human Experience

(That’s what I’m gonna try to do anyway… make this post worth remembering for all the people it is dedicated to…)

“THEM”… all the fantastic people I’ve met and learnt to know lately. Their names? You probably don’t care, but I nonetheless want to mention them, because it matters to me… I’m sure you already know both Florence (also called Flavie Peticoeur on her blog, my adorable #PetitChatPréféré) and Jamie (the lovely & amazing current Marius, performing in Les Misérables at the Queen’s Theatre in London) I had the chance to interview a bit earlier this year! You may also know Chloé (from La penderie de Chloé – blog) who shares a common taste for cider (not to say LOVE… you’re gonna think we’re alcoholic :p! Actually naww, not with cider :p!!!). I would also like to talk about three incredible British girls, whose names are Caroline, Becky and Laura (a very great bunch of people ^^). And the last persons I want to mention are the incredible girls, running Jamie Ward’s and Celinde Schoenmaker’s fan pages; I’m obviously talking about my very much loved Jenna & Stela and Julia (Love you, girls xxx)!

Now that I’ve made the presentations, I think I can start explaining why I feel so blessed. I’m saying “blessed”, but I could also say “thankful” and “lucky”, or even “happy”… because those people are SIMPLY & TRULY amazing, and they do make me happy :)!

Steve Maraboli once wrote, “It is only with true love and compassion that we can begin to mend what is broken in the world. It is these two blessed things that can begin to heal all broken hearts.” When I arrived in England, I was totally, completely broken… my family was entirely destroyed, my life in France was kind of a mess (and… still is, to be honest, but I’ll deal with that when I’m back :s), I couldn’t see the good things in life anymore… (hopefully, the only things I could hold on to were my cat and my horse – fortunately, my very much loved horse is still here, living his BEAUTIFUL horse life, and still not bothered by all the bullshit life can bring :p, but my little cat is not well at all and it truly kills me 😦 …)  but since then… I met some very lovely, adorable, amazing, incredible, gentle and sweet people over here… across the sea 😉 (I could find lots of adjectives of that kind to describe them, but I think I shall stop here for the moment ^^)! And those people (that now includes the ones I mentioned at the very beginning of this post) changed everything… In a word, they gave me my smile back :D! What’s more important than that?! Nothing really… I think they simply proved me, showed me that there was a place to belong to, a place where a happy life was well and truly possible, this so very special and cherished place, where I met them… England!

So, yeah! I feel blessed and thankful and lucky to know these people… my lovely British family, Caroline, Jamie, Florence, Chloé, Jenna, Becky, Laura, Stela and Julia…

So to you, guys, who have spent at least four minutes with me in some way :p, I just want to say THANK YOU! Thank you for being in my life today, thank you for bringing joy back in my life, thank you for being who you are and doing what you do! I love you like I love sparkles, I love you like I love my horse and cat, I love you like I love my family and I love you like I love having the last word ;p! And, believe me, THAT’S real love ;)! Xxx

(I would like to say a special thank you to Jamie, who definitely made my day the other evening (see! I have still not got over it ;p!) when he sent that very sweet & lovely tweet). 🙂

With this, the only thing I’d like to wish you, my very dear readers, is to feel that way too… Feeling thankful and blessed for what and who you have in your life that makes you happy… I truly & sincerely wish this for all of you, simply because, I think, that’s one of the keys to happiness, to YOUR happiness 😉

So…

Keep holding on to what you love & enjoy the ride of life 😉

Much love ❤

xoxo