On my way… by Marie

Keep holding on to what you love & enjoy the ride of life


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Saying goodbye…

♪ Looking through your eyes

I could never find a safer place

Even if I tried…

Don’t ever let me go

I know I’m ok

Wrapped in your arms…. I’m home ♪

Wrapped in your arms – Firelight 

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Don’t let me go… Keep me in your arms…

To all the fantastic people I’ve met over here in England; to you guys who are my friends and who it is so hard to say goodbye to, to all of you… Caroline, Melody, Jamie, Becky, Jenna, Laura, and the lovely twins Stela & Julia, to each of you… I’ve never thought it was going to be that hard, but leaving you here literally is a HEARTBREAK!!!

Not a long ago, a friend reminded me that… “Goodbyes are not forever. Goodbyes are not the end. They simply mean I’ll miss you until we meet again!” Even if it doesn’t seem like it right now, even if it’s still hard to believe, even if everything looks like it is all over… when you truly think about it, it’s just… true! And as hard as it is for me right now, as painful as all these goodbyes are (whether they were said in London this last weekend or this week on Hayling), I would like to leave England with this state of mind, I want to leave with HOPE! Cassandra Clare once wrote “Every meeting led to a parting, and so it would, as long as life was mortal. In every meeting there was some of the sorrow of parting, but in everything parting there was some of the joy of meeting as well.” I precisely want to leave with THIS feeling, with this pain due to the separation (because it is actually unavoidable!) mixed with the joy of seeing all these people I love again! Thus, you’ll understand I’d rather say “I SEE YOU SOON” instead of “GOODBYE” (which is, let’s say it, so much more depressing)!!!

This post is probably the most difficult I have had to write… Not because of a lack of inspiration or anything, but simply because it moves me a lot… One sometimes says that “tears are words the heart can’t say”, “a grief that can’t be spoken”. But as you can’t see me, I have to do my best to express what’s within my tears right now…

Kiera Cass once wrote “You’ve changed me forever. And I’ll never forget you.” I also want to add: ‘I will always be thankful for everything you’ve brought me and I know you will keep on bringing”. You arrived into my life and left your footprints on my heart and I know that having you in my life totally changed me… you changed me for good, even maybe for the better ❤

I know I will all see you again, wherever it may be… England, France, Europe, or another continent! But it’s not really where we’ll meet again that matters… What’s truly important is to realise that wherever we are from each other, wherever we go, wherever we’ll be… as far as I’m concerned, you’ll always be in my heart, you’ll live in my heart forever! And you know what one says?! “People who live in your heart are living with you!” You see? Now that you’re in my heart, you’ll be with me forever and we’ll never be apart… So don’t be afraid because I’m leaving… because I love you always, I love you with my heart!

Now I just hope that I’ll be in your hearts as well as you’re in mine… because as Pittacus Lore once wrote “Every beat of my heart belongs to you, whether you ask for it or not.” So don’t give up on me… because I WON’T give up on you!

Just think about this quote of Richard Bach…

“Can miles truly separate you from friends…. If you want to be with someone you love, aren’t you already there? “

So to all of you, my lovely ones, Caroline, Melody, Jamie, Becky, Jenna, Laura, and Stela & Julia, I am not saying GOODBYE… I’m saying I SEE YOU VERY SOON :* Xxx

For this special post, I will change my “motto” a bit and write…

Keep holding on to who you love & enjoy the ride of life 😉 ‘Cause Look! You never know who you’re going to find on your way… 😉

You and I will meet again

When we’re least expecting it

One day in some far off place

I will recognize your face

I won’t say goodbye my friend

For you and I will meet again

~Tom Petty

MUCH LOVE TO ALL OF MY ENGLISH FRIENDS ❤ ❤ ❤ and to all of you, my sweet readers!

xoxo

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From across the sea… 

Is this what it feels like to really cry? I shall guess so… But as painful as these tears may be, there’s nonetheless & somehow good news… These tears are the proofs that you’re in my heart ❤


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There will only be one Goodbye…

And it’s dedicated to France! I know that this post is going to shock a lot of people, but here it is… I’ve never been selfish, or at least I don’t think so. But this time is different! I can’t go back to France, I won’t (or practically I will go back there to take my exams and finish what I’ve started, but I’m not sure to still be here in September)!

One says that ‘the most painful goodbyes are the ones that are never said and never explained’, that’s why I think you deserve some explanations…

I’m sorry… but I don’t think I’ll be able to live in France again… simply because I’ve found the place where I belong. I’ve held my breath for years and I’ve been hurt because of that. I definitely can’t live the rest of my life in a country that doesn’t match with me, where I don’t feel well (anymore? I don’t know if France has ever matched with me or if I’ve ever matched with France). Moreover… I think it’s time for me to finally move on (that’s what’s best for everybody I think)!

It’s not a sudden impulse or whatsoever! I’ve been thinking about it since my last high school year but I thought that last year was too early (maybe it wasn’t…). I’ve always wanted to study and live abroad, but I didn’t really know where until now. Today, I know that England is my HOME, and by ‘home’, I mean the place whereI can be myself, feel fine and do good.

I’m scared of people’s reaction, that’s why I decided to write it on my blog first. For those who know me and who read this blog, I just have one request to make … Try to understand me, please.

I don’t want to give you this advice…

‘Keep holding on to what you love & enjoy the ride of life’

if I don’t follow it myself, so… this is what this post is about. It’s about me following my dreams, and as hard as it can be, I’m not giving up on it (not on this one!)

So if I can follow my dream, the dream of living my life in the place where I know I belong… You, guys, can also follow yours!

Now I have to face the persons that could destroy it in a second : my family!

xoxo