On my way… by Marie

Keep holding on to what you love & enjoy the ride of life


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Feeling blessed to know THEM…

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“Live your truth. Express your love. Share your enthusiasm. Take action towards your dreams. Walk your talk. Dance and sing to your music. Embrace your blessings. Make today worth remembering.”

― Steve MaraboliUnapologetically You: Reflections on Life and the Human Experience

(That’s what I’m gonna try to do anyway… make this post worth remembering for all the people it is dedicated to…)

“THEM”… all the fantastic people I’ve met and learnt to know lately. Their names? You probably don’t care, but I nonetheless want to mention them, because it matters to me… I’m sure you already know both Florence (also called Flavie Peticoeur on her blog, my adorable #PetitChatPréféré) and Jamie (the lovely & amazing current Marius, performing in Les Misérables at the Queen’s Theatre in London) I had the chance to interview a bit earlier this year! You may also know Chloé (from La penderie de Chloé – blog) who shares a common taste for cider (not to say LOVE… you’re gonna think we’re alcoholic :p! Actually naww, not with cider :p!!!). I would also like to talk about three incredible British girls, whose names are Caroline, Becky and Laura (a very great bunch of people ^^). And the last persons I want to mention are the incredible girls, running Jamie Ward’s and Celinde Schoenmaker’s fan pages; I’m obviously talking about my very much loved Jenna & Stela and Julia (Love you, girls xxx)!

Now that I’ve made the presentations, I think I can start explaining why I feel so blessed. I’m saying “blessed”, but I could also say “thankful” and “lucky”, or even “happy”… because those people are SIMPLY & TRULY amazing, and they do make me happy :)!

Steve Maraboli once wrote, “It is only with true love and compassion that we can begin to mend what is broken in the world. It is these two blessed things that can begin to heal all broken hearts.” When I arrived in England, I was totally, completely broken… my family was entirely destroyed, my life in France was kind of a mess (and… still is, to be honest, but I’ll deal with that when I’m back :s), I couldn’t see the good things in life anymore… (hopefully, the only things I could hold on to were my cat and my horse – fortunately, my very much loved horse is still here, living his BEAUTIFUL horse life, and still not bothered by all the bullshit life can bring :p, but my little cat is not well at all and it truly kills me 😦 …)  but since then… I met some very lovely, adorable, amazing, incredible, gentle and sweet people over here… across the sea 😉 (I could find lots of adjectives of that kind to describe them, but I think I shall stop here for the moment ^^)! And those people (that now includes the ones I mentioned at the very beginning of this post) changed everything… In a word, they gave me my smile back :D! What’s more important than that?! Nothing really… I think they simply proved me, showed me that there was a place to belong to, a place where a happy life was well and truly possible, this so very special and cherished place, where I met them… England!

So, yeah! I feel blessed and thankful and lucky to know these people… my lovely British family, Caroline, Jamie, Florence, Chloé, Jenna, Becky, Laura, Stela and Julia…

So to you, guys, who have spent at least four minutes with me in some way :p, I just want to say THANK YOU! Thank you for being in my life today, thank you for bringing joy back in my life, thank you for being who you are and doing what you do! I love you like I love sparkles, I love you like I love my horse and cat, I love you like I love my family and I love you like I love having the last word ;p! And, believe me, THAT’S real love ;)! Xxx

(I would like to say a special thank you to Jamie, who definitely made my day the other evening (see! I have still not got over it ;p!) when he sent that very sweet & lovely tweet). 🙂

With this, the only thing I’d like to wish you, my very dear readers, is to feel that way too… Feeling thankful and blessed for what and who you have in your life that makes you happy… I truly & sincerely wish this for all of you, simply because, I think, that’s one of the keys to happiness, to YOUR happiness 😉

So…

Keep holding on to what you love & enjoy the ride of life 😉

Much love ❤

xoxo


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‘Stay then…’

That’s what Jamie told me the other day when I said to him I really didn’t want to go back to France.

“Stay then…”

The answer seems so obvious! But maybe it is!? After all, why would I go if I don’t want to? why would I come home if that makes me unhappy, sad and depressed? There is no point in it, apart from the happiness of my dad apparently!

I know this is already the second time I write about it, but it truly tortures me! I know I’ll have to go back in a few months and I will… and I also know that ANYWAY I’ll be back here for good in less than two years (and I’m not even talking of all the opportunities I’ll have so that I can come back in the next two years! :D), but the only thought of leaving my dad alone when I know it will destroy him (even in two years! Even if he has two years to get his head round the idea… It will still not be enough for him!) also kills me!

But when I think about it, I clearly see that my dad is being selfish! The other day, I talked to him on the phone and he told me that even if he knew I was really happy in England (and that actually I’ve never been that fine for quite a long time), he couldn’t get used to living without me! Oh Come On!!!! It’s not because he can’t “live without me”, it’s just because he needs some company! He didn’t especially want to see me when he was with his NEW girlfriend in London the other day (I spent my Saturday evening on my own, because they were going to the opera!), even if, initially, the aim of their trip was to see me (not that I think I’m essential, but when he told me this girl offered him a weekend in London (which actually was not true… I figured it out during the weekend! NO COMMENT.) because she knew he NEEDED to see me, and so on, and so on, well excuse me if I understood they were REALLY coming to see me!).

I nevertheless spent a wonderful weekend in London (it’s always great ANYWAY!), I didn’t get lost in the tube (which I think deserves a congratulation, doesn’t it?! :p) and I met Jamie, a very nice person!

But here I am now! I’m gonna go back to France in a few months, be the girl of the family again and try to put up with all the mess (the one I’m likely to find when I come home (because with two men, two dogs and a cat in it… I don’t want to imagine how it’s gonna look like! :s) but also the ‘family’ one). Indeed, I’ll have to face my brother, who’s getting more and more withdrawn, my dad and his all-the-time complaining (it gets really annoying as the time passes by) , my too protective & even possessive grandparents and my irresponsible, dizzy & frivolous mother! (Even if I don’t see her anymore, I can assure you that I hear from her everyday… and not in a good way if you know what I mean!).

Anyway, all I know now is that I feel SAFE here, in England. I know these problems are still here and will somehow always be if there’s at least still one person (in my family), who doesn’t move on… But I want to move on and feel HAPPY & SAFE. I chose England to be so, and I know I will. After all, what are not even two years in a life? We could say nothing… but here and now, I came to the point that it’s maybe two years too many.

Some people will say that I run away from all this, some others will simply say that I follow my dreams! And I say that’s maybe both! But I don’t mind, because I know that I’ve found a home (you know this place you call HOME your entire life wherever you go, wherever you are). Well, England is that place for me :). And as one says, we always find our way back home. Right?

“We all flee in hope of finding some ground of security”
― M.T. Anderson, The Kingdom on the Waves

And as far as you’re concerned, my lovely dear readers, I think you know what to do…

Keep holding to what you love & enjoy the ride of life 😉

xoxo