On my way… by Marie

Keep holding on to what you love & enjoy the ride of life

A dream that can (NOT YET) become true…

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Hey guys, I think what I’ve got to tell you today is gonna be very good news for lots of you (or not, I’ll let you be judge).

Indeed I thought a lot about my project of studying in England and I realized that I couldn’t do it now, simply because I’m not selfish enough to leave my dad alone. He was diagnosed with cancer about three years ago and then my mum left home and my dad got depressed. He’s a bit better now but still fragile, and I think that seeing me leave home for good would ‘kill’ him. Furthermore and regarding the situation, I know that I have responsibilities towards him and that I have to look after him. It shouldn’t be this way (“normally”) but it is… and what do you want me to do? This is the life and we can’t change it… I can’t change what happened in the past.

I know this is a dream that I’m kind of leaving behind me but my dad and his health are much more important.

I tried to convince myself that I could be just a bit selfish to realize one of my biggest dream, but I can’t. Apparently God made me to good even for that !

I am really going to regret it, I know that because I’m literary loving England, its people and its everything!!!! I still know that this is the place where I belong & I’m not saying that I’m giving up on it… I’m simply postponing it.

Who knows? Maybe in a few years my dad will be a lot better and I will be able to move here FOR GOOD!

Anyway I hope that everyone Keeps holding on to what she/he loves & enjoys the ride of life 😉

xoxo

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